Why do things happen..

One of the most common questions asked is "why do things happen"? That is a question that can't always be answered. So when we don't know the answer we say "Everything happens for a reason" Which I really believe, most of the time. But sometimes it's difficult to believe. What purpose do some things serve. Why did that have to happen if it truely happened for a reason. Why did I get toxemia? Why was my son born prematurely? Why did he have to die? I will never know the answers to those questions. But I can't sit around and ask myself those things everyday or I'll stoop down into a deeper and deeper depression.

Before I got pregnant with David my husband and I tried for over a year. I was constantly asking myself WHY am I not pregnant yet? Why are these women who don't even want babies getting pregnant? Some of these children will end up being in foster homes, others being aborted. While others will grow up being ignored. Now don't get me wrong, I know theres some amazing mothers out there. I'm not talking about them. I'm talking about the mothers like Casey Anthony, or my cousin's birth mother. I mean, I asked myself constantly why is it women like them get to call themselves a mother yet I would be a great mother and here I am not being able to get pregnant. That was just after one year. It didn't help that I was trying and around me people kept popping up pregnant, most of whom weren't even trying.  The question always on my mind was WHY.

But it didn't help to ask why then. It just made me more depressed. And I didn't want to live my life depressed. I wanted to enjoy the short time I have here. So I stopped asking why.
After David passed away I started asking why again. Why did he die? Why did the Lord give me him if he was just going to take him away. But I have to stop asking Why, because it will never get answered. Most of the questions we have in life will go unanswered, and that is ok. Because in the end do most of the questions we have even matter? I believe when we get to heaven most of the questions we had here on this earth won't even matter to us anymore. That is probably a good thing.